The Results Are In!

So, just got the fertilization report, and I'm happy, but also a little disappointed to report the following: 
Of our 18 eggs,
only 12 were mature (sadness),
but of that 12 we had a good fertilization rate with 9 fertilizing. 

I was worried we might have a few immature ones, based on my high number of smaller follicles and the fact that my E2 was really too high for the doc to let me grow them out a couple more days.  I know this is a great number, but I think my expectations were so high that it still feels disappointing and scary.  I am happy though that everything looks good so far, and we are set for a day 5 transfer. 

My doc's office has this policy where they don't remove the embies from their incubators again till the transfer day, which freaks me out a little because we will be going into the transfer completely blind.  They say it is better for the embryos and not to worry, but I am a natural worrier, so worry I will.  I wish I had a little camera to watch them each day, and make sure they keep growing, but alas, I can only send them love from here and hope for the best.

I will now attempt to keep myself distracted and relaxed while I await transfer day, and to remember to be incredibly grateful to have so many hurdles already surmounted and 9 potential babies growing snugly in their dishes (man that sounds weird).