Sorry for being kinda a bad blogger since my fertility report. I've had so much on my mind, but haven't been able to organize it into anything particularly readable.
I'm also sorry - especially to those of you out there who experienced truly disheartening post retrieval news this week - if I sounded at all ungrateful in my last post for our 9 fertilized embryos. I actually didn't realize that that was a really good number, and was more in shock over the high number of immature eggs we had and going from 18 to 9 overnight. It freaked me out, cause I realized we could lose the lot, or have only 1 or 2 that are actually viable and I just didn't think that would happen to us. Not with my 18 eggs at retrieval and such a promising start.
Now I know that 9 is actually a great number, and I'm just hoping and praying that Sunday we will find out that most if not all survived and thrived through the 5 days. I've been sending them love, but I'm still scared for Sunday's report.
I am thinking about my embryos A LOT, and worrying of course, about how many will survive till Sunday, what shape they will be in, how will they be graded, if we will have enough good quality ones to freeze some, etc. I'm also in increasing amounts of discomfort, with my abdomen so bloated and distended that I feel like my skin is being stretched and my organs are going to explode. I talked to my doc's office today, and they assured me that these symptoms are common after retrieval, but to let them know if they get worse. The weird thing is, I'm having trouble determining "worse" as I tend to feel better in the mornings, but the nights are horrible.
DH has turned out to be a whiz kid with the PIO shots, which is a huge relief. My butt is growing increasingly sore each day, but I hardly feel the giant-ass needle when he does it, and he's been a doll about massaging the area for a good 2 minutes afterward. The positive note in all this - my boobs look great! Thanks progesterone.
I keep reminding myself that this will all be worth it when I have my own beautiful BFP and 9 months later, my take home baby, but sometimes that is hard to keep in the back of your mind when right now you can hardly breath cause your trunk is so painfully bloated and going to the bathroom has become a "challenge" (sorry if TMI).
Should I be worried that I can sometimes feel pain up to my shoulder when I take a deep breath?
Okay, really, enough whining now.
Happy Friday everyone!