Wednesday, December 29, 2010

No really, I'm just fine

Hey Everyone,

I hope you enjoyed your respective holiday seasons, and thank you so much for all the thoughtful comments on my last post.  Christmas was not so bad as I had anticipated; I found out about some infertility troubles among the family that I hadn't known about before, and I had a nice chat with one former infertile about IVF, fertility drugs, mean doctors saying stupid, asinine things.  Plus, I only cried once which is a step up for me.  I named this post for that bit of crying, seeing as how I keep telling everyone I really am doing better, handling everything well, etc., and yet somehow I tear up every time I have to explain the situation to anyone.  If I'm so fine, why do I completely lose control of my emotions discussing anything related to my infertility issues and what I've been going through over the last year.

The one amusing thing was when said former infertile was discussing all this, she mentioned that it was only after she had gone through all the drugs and IVF and basically given up all hope, that she conceived naturally.  She timidly started the next sentence, "It is really hard to say this, cause I know I would have punched anyone who said this to me while I was going through what you are going through right now, and actually you have permission to punch me in the face, but I truly believe you need to take a calm, Zen kind of attitude towards this, and stop worrying so much and it will happen for you."  I didn't have a response for this...and I didn't punch her for anyone who is wondering.  I think I just quietly sniffed and wiped a tear...then we hugged, she told me I will be an amazing mother, and that was about it.

Clomid: little, white, different
Anyway, the good news right now, the Clomid seems to be doing its job.  I have ovulated at a normal, healthy time (cycle day 15/16), and though I seem to have also developed a cyst which is causing me some discomfort, I think I will overall I consider this a success.  Now, the wait...


  1. GOOD LUCK!!! Keeping my fingers and toes crossed! I'll even keep my legs crossed, since we won't be officially BD this cycle LOL!!

  2. I hope this is THE cycle for you! A BFP just in time for the new year would be just what the doctor ordered!! :-)

    I would definitely ask your endo for the cytomel. It doesn't make you feel hyper.... but I feel alert and not tired. Believe me, the last few months I take a nap every chance I get and since starting these pills I'm not sleepy in the afternoon like usual. What an awesome feeling!!!!! Maybe there's hope for us yet.

  3. Good luck dear. People keep telling me that it will happen when the time is right and I keep thinking...but I have given it over a year and a half and it isn't happening - even when I relax...
    I think it's all chance. Hopefully our chance will come sooner than later.

  4. Thanks ladies...Lisa, you make me giggle :)

    Ms. One Cycle - Thanks for the info on the Cytomel. I am always sneaking in naps after work, and and feeling generally sleepy, even when I've had plenty of sleep. Here's hoping my endo will agree to write the prescription cause I def want to give it a try.

  5. Glad to hear that the Clomid seems to be doing it's job! :) I will be thinking of you during your two week wait and hoping that it ends with a BFP!