Monday, October 4, 2010

Entering the Blogosphere

Welcome to my first post.  I don't know if anyone will read this blog, besides myself, but my hope is that a) it will help me work through some of my own infertility and PCOS demons, and b) maybe there are others out there, going through the same things, who might read this and benefit from my experiences in some way. 

I am 28 years old, and up until this past year, I had no idea my many years of birth control pill usage had masked underlying fertility and hormone issues.  I did not know I would soon be diagnosed with  hypothyroidism, and placed on Synthroid, and I certainly didn't know, or even suspect that I would find out I have PCOS (Poly-cystic Ovary Syndrome), and probably have since adolescence. 

10 months ago, my husband and I were on our honeymoon, discussing our plans to start trying for a baby the following month.  I was scared, excited, overjoyed.  We had talked about it many times before, and here we were, finally taking the plunge, and going off the Pill  The 9 months since that trip have been an exhausting roller coaster of fear, excitement, confusion, hope, depression, and bewilderment.  The exaggerated feelings of "flying and thud" of  every month we've spent trying to conceive, have taken me from soaring up high, to drowning at the bottom of the deepest well of self-pity & disappointment.  Then as rampant acne on my face and back turned my skin's biological clock back to adolescence, and I began to sleep through large portions of the day, I realized something was really wrong.  Why was I gaining so much weight, why couldn't I stay awake, what was going on with these uncomfortable cysts in my left ovary, and the recurring abdominal pain...finally, why wasn't I getting pregnant? 

I titled this blog, "Uncommon nonsense," a phrase hijacked from Lewis Carroll's, Alice in Wonderland, because I feel the phrase best describes the litany of crazy truths, falsehoods, half-truths, misunderstandings, misinterpretations, and just plan lack of helpfulness I have encountered from the medical professionals and insurance people I've encountered since starting down this 'subfertile' road.  In the future, you can check back here to see updates on my medical progress, and fertility issues, information on diagnosing and treating endocrine disorders - including PCOS, advice and suggestions, words of encouragement, and even book and internet site reviews. 

Thank you for visiting my blog, and please feel free to share your stories and comments.

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