Today has been a wondrous day so far, and complete with a new found sense of hope. Today we got to see the little yolk sac and gestational sac of our baby to be, and it was perfect. It's still too early to try and find a fetal pole or a heart beat, but it was an incredible moment and one that I wish for all you ladies out there. I feel incredibly grateful to have come this far, and my only dream right now is that this little one keeps right on being healthy and growing and growing.
DH and I drove to the RE this morning, and met with the other doc in the practice, Dr. D - Dr Fox is away on vacation. Dr D was absolutely adorable, all smiles and gentleness. Dr. Fox is great, but I think I liked Dr. D even more. He answered all of our one million and one questions, which DH has written down in his terrible handwriting, and assured us that though I should have another U/S when I get back from my trip to check for a fetal heartbeat, so far everything is looking good.
The other good news of the day, the fluid in my abdomen is almost completely gone (about 2 cm of bubble on the U/S screen). The girls (AKA, my ovaries) are still pretty enlarged, so there will probably be no dancing or sexy time in my near future, but I think the OHSS is taking a turn for the much, much better.
****UPDATE ON THE STORIES PROJECT****
I've already started receiving some amazing stories, and I'm hoping more will come flooding in, in the coming month. I am trying to think of other ways to spread the news (LFCA seems to have helped but I think I can only post there once), and encourage more ladies and gents out there to share, and would love to hear your ideas.
I am leaving my job at the end of this month in preparation for our move, and I'm hoping to spend some time at that point on building a website for the project and creating things like a blog button and so forth. Sadly, I'm not really web building savvy (as evidenced by my own simple Blogger layout), so this may be a slow moving process, but I'm determined and married to a former software engineer, so there is hope.
****ONE MORE NOTE****
To my amazing friends in the Blogosphere, particularly those who are still awaiting their BFP...
Thank you so much for your amazing support and friendship, and please know that I truly understand if you no longer wish to read or comment on my blog. I know how hard it is to read other people's pregnancy stories or updates, even fellow IFers, and to feel like your own dreams of becoming a parent are further away than ever. I would never want to be a reminder of that pain for anyone.
If you do decide you want to stick around, I would love to keep hearing from you, and I also promise that this blog will not become entirely dedicated to pregnancy symptoms or pictures of ultrasounds. I plan to continue using my blog not only as a continued means of expressing myself and connecting with you all, but also as a tool for infertility advocacy, support and understanding.
I've heard that Resolve has had difficulty building a strong force of advocates and leaders, sometimes because many of us infertiles are uncomfortable speaking out (myself included) or because they have become parents and tried to put much of this behind them, or that they do not want to be involved for other reasons. I made a commitment to myself and to you all that I will stay involved, initially through the Stories Project, and hopefully in the future through other avenues as well, and I intend to keep that promise. I want to learn to speak out and to fight to make this disease more wildly researched and understood.
Wishing you all and wonderful weekend.