tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2165189366915705477.post5001707730406207771..comments2023-04-10T03:32:17.274-05:00Comments on Uncommon Nonsense: Re-learning to trustKerrikhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13206990230707526604noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2165189366915705477.post-41258764093134411432011-10-22T00:20:40.596-05:002011-10-22T00:20:40.596-05:00The way I explain it to people is that it is reall...The way I explain it to people is that it is really hard to believe good news after you've received so much bad news for so long. Part of the grieving process for me meant that I had to let go of the HOW we started our family and focus on the ultimate goal of HAVING a family. There was a part of me that had given up on pregnancy... Just because I wanted it, didn't mean that it was in the cards for me. <br /><br />When we started getting good news it was hard to trust that the good news was real. And hard to believe that I might actually get to experience this much wanted pregnancy, that part of me had already grieved the loss of.foxyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05482866425915180237noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2165189366915705477.post-11073998868357681362011-10-20T17:23:59.339-05:002011-10-20T17:23:59.339-05:00This post rings so true for me. First I hated my b...This post rings so true for me. First I hated my body for not conceiving on its own the way it was supposed to. Then when IVF led me to pregnancy I thought 'finally if did something right'. Then it broke a blood vessel and I ended up in the hospital and I hated it again. But it seemed to turn out okay and didn't hurt my babies. And I was grateful. And the final betrayal was last week when my body either produced a blood clot that separated the placenta or my cervix failed me. <br /><br />Now, I have very little faith in my body. I can only hope that with some medical help and luck I will be able to bring a baby into the world at the right (safe) time. <br /><br />It's so good to know that some IF gals can conquer this.ADSchillhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13972164121690415796noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2165189366915705477.post-48482680867245661952011-10-20T15:20:59.013-05:002011-10-20T15:20:59.013-05:00Yes. Exactly. If I couldn't trust my body to...Yes. Exactly. If I couldn't trust my body to work it's reproductive system properly, how in the world can I trust it to protect one of the most important things in the entire world, my unborn child(ren)?<br /><br />Every time a worry creeps in about whether or not I will see a heartbeat at the next ultrasound or whether I will make it out of the first trimester, I have to remind myself that thousands (THOUSANDS!) of women are walking around everyday, their body doing exactly what it is supposed to do and protecting their children. Why would mine be any different? <br /><br />It's just so hard to do!Emilyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12096489486428442108noreply@blogger.com